Saturday, August 6, 2011

The Day My World Began Moving in Slow Motion

Seven years ago today my world started moving in slow motion.

Really....just like in the movies.

I remember the start of it all clearly.....I was playing with Rachel after having arrived home with the kids after work.  It was a Friday evening and I was surprised that Brian wasn't home yet.  It was a Friday after all.....why was he working late?

Rachel and I werein the living room when suddenly she began taking her first steps.  I shouted for the boys to join me watching this major accomplishment by their soon to be 1 year old sister.

Suddenly the phone rang.  Brian was on the other end of the line.

It was at this moment that my life began moving in slow motion....Brian was calling me to let me know he was in the hospital, that he went for some routine blood work and was admitted.  I could tell from his voice that he realized this wasn't "routine."  This was the first time I ever heard a little fear and uncertainty from Brian.

Our world would change forever from that very moment.  7 years ago today.

Brian never did see his baby daughter walk.

An apology in advance to my friends....this is when I start to go into a "funk" without really realizing it.  The next two weeks are met with the "7 years ago today" thought process when I wake up.  It always surprises me when I realize I have arrived into my yearly "funk."

I am hoping that this year by writing about it, I may have a different experience and not end up in the tailspin I found myself in last year.    Thank goodness for the LIVESTRONG community for helping me out of this state last can read more about this at How LIVESTRONG Saved Me From the Tilt-A-Whirl.

In addition to my wonderful friends I am surrounded by each and every day, the LIVESTRONG community has assisted me in moving  forward with my life.....these are the people in my world that "get it", that understand the terrible impact cancer can make on peoples lives, that provide the hope and support when times are rough, that reach out across the miles to check in, send a virtual hug, make me laugh.  It is without them that my life would still be moving in slow motion on some days, and spinning out of control on others.

It is for this reason, I am so passionate about fundraising for LIVESTRONG....and I keep running....and running....and running - RUNNINGSTRONG for HOPE.

I will not stop anytime soon - please consider supporting me and my efforts by donating any amount - $5 for the 5 more minutes we'd all love to have with our loved ones lost to cancer, $25 to have a loved one added to the Tribute Wall and added to the list I run in honor of...$1 or $10 or $100 - 86% of your donation goes to provide the support I have benefited from all these years.
Click here for Barbara's fundraising page

I am forever indebted to my LIVESTRONG family - THANK YOU!

1 comment:

  1. Hi there,
    I stumbled across your blog because we have a mutual "follower," and was so touched by your stories, your writing, and how you are channeling such a difficult time in your life into such an inspiring journey. I am truly sorry for the loss of all of your loved ones. I can't begin to imagine what strength it must take for you to live the life you are. I hope to be able to support you in some way through your organization...keep on running and writing and I will keep on checking in. Nice to meet you :) ~Lara